NOT A POEMS

if dreams, why beautiful?

it's ok if i disappoint myself it happened a thousand times and i'll face it a hundred times but when it comes to people i love every time i give them needle my heart can barely take it one needle prick over their heart millions of sword stabbed me i cried i cried thinking how awful to be me how awful for them to have me how my life turn into the most bottom of the cycle it happens now but i don't know what will happened next tomorrow, next month or in the future will the wheel turn upside down?                                                    -not a poems

why i cant just get what i want if you tell me to wait how long could it be? lingering my minds with memories i've never had change the person every time i met someone new it hurts seeing the one you loved gone seeing the one you thought you will be end up with get together with someone you know now who should i trust?

i can see you far from the distance did i mispronounce far? because i can touch you i awake, that you are here next to me but your heart, our heart barely sit with each other my heart was tremble when i saw you with her i hid my sadness in the deepest down of my cliff my lungs felt nothing but a punch from you but her how could i hate her she was something for me, she worth more than you and the way she looks at you both of you looks fine without me she is your sun but all you ask is a moon then i heard that she wasn't the moon of your heart should i be glad or should i be sad? but in life there's always two sides of every story the left one and the right one should i choose left where nothing is right? or should i choose right? where nothing is left                                                             -not a poems